Lagoon Part II

So I mentioned that Lagoon was a hit and we had a blast. I learned a valuable lesson also at Lagoon. The older kids and I went back and they were stoked for the big kid rides. We got back in and started walking towards them. I saw the fear setting in. My kids have done crazy things like the stupid high tower of terror at disneyland, but they were getting iffy about riding anything scary. It was a little because Dad wasn't there, but they were scared.

We rode the wild mouse first. It is one that makes you feel like you are going over the edge to drop to your death and then you do it like 6 more times. I love it, but the kids faces showed me that they were not big fans. We got off the ride and they showed me how they were still shaking. Sooo wicked, colossus, and cliffhanger were out. Walking north the white roller coaster was passed up. They didn't really want to do anything, but were making excuses why. We got to the BAT ride and decided to give it a try. We got to the front of the line and poor Cy was terrified. I told him that he wouldn't get hurt. I told him I would not make him do it and would not be dissapointed if he got off. He did and fast! He told me at that time "Mom tell me what it is like and how it feels"

At this time while I watched him walk away and before I got on it to ride I had a great learning experience. It is these time that I thank my Heavenly Father for opening my eyes and allowing me to learn and grow. There are so many times..I have been so scared to do something. So scared to share the gospel with a friend. So scared to be a single mom. So scared/straight terrified to say goodbye to my husband that I wouldn't touch for 8 months. In those time I am the little child that is looking up and not wanting to do it. There are so many times that I have been allowed to make excuses for not following through. Heavenly Father wants to see us do it and wants us to be happy, but he won't force us. As I am crying waiting for the ride to start I started to be greatful for all those times that I had just done it..it hasn't always been fun like the ride, but I could say "I did it." I got off the ride and desperatly wanted him to try it. He refused. We went and did a couple more things and some smaller stuff. He started warming up to the rides again and finally for the last ride of the night I mentioned the BAT. He was very reluctant but I held the stuff animals and they went to ride. He did it, and then one last time. Guess what his favorite ride is? The BAT!

Moral to long Lagoon story..we have to do things that we are scared of sometimes. We have to be willing to trust someone else to be able to learn and have new experiences. Life is like a roller coaster, up and down, but if you get on and enjoy the ride, it can be your favorite! I am so greatful for my kids and the opportunity I have to raise them. They are 4 of the strongest kids out there. They are truly awesome!

I know that I have more "rides in life" I am going to be scared to go on, but hope I remember this day and remember if I just hop on, it will end and be my favorite!

I am out out of time out

I have released myself from time out. I have caved and took comfort in my addictions! I have my cell phone back. Although my text messaging is not really working again, I called T-mobile and begged them to let me have my phone off military hold. I really am more effective of a person with it. I think of some of the times in the last month I have spent more time than the money saved is worth running around because of that stupid thing.

I am working on it and hopefully after being in time out for a month (that is as long as I could last) I hope that I can not be so engrossed in it and not let it run my life like before, but I am really the helper bee and have let some people down (for which I am truly sorry)

Things I learned while not having a cell phone.
1. It is sometimes scary to drive 1000 miles on two lane roads at night
2. It is a hassle to keep in touch. (lets give a shout out for the inventor of the text message)
3. I found out I use my calculator alot actually
4. My phone is my watch. For someone who is very scheduled and runs late anyway..you take away my means of telling time and I am not very effective. Short example: The way I knew what time it was was by looking at a reciept from a store I was at. If not at a store than had no sense of time..very sad I know
5. My phone is my alarm. I never realized that my alarm is really what gets me up at 5 every morning. I just always kindof thought it just worked out that way.
6. My phone is my music. Ok, I do have a really cool phone, but take away my apps and I am hating it.
7. I like talking to my husband wherever. I use a calling card, but sometimes I just want to call and say hi and hate to go home to do it
Last but not least.. I confirmed what I knew to be true..I am an addict. Going off something cold turkey is not smart lol I am still going to use it sparingly and watch my budget with it, but come on..who was I kidding.

To all those laughing at me right now, knowing that I wouldn't last long. I say to you "you were right, but now you can call me and tell me yourself" YAY

Grow little flower

I sometimes sneak around and listen in on my kids. I yell at them for easedropping on me, but as a parent it is my earned right, correct?

Carmen is hilarious and in the last couple days has really been more so, I think because she has found a new crowd to entertain. I came around the corner and she was sitting at the kitchen table leaning over.

Background: Grandma helped Carmen pick some flowers from the garden the other day and Carmen had them prepared and they have been a centerpiece all week. She has grown quite fond of them.

On this particular day, she was talking to them very softly and sweetly. She was leaned over and touching one of the stems ( almost slightly bouncing it in and out of the vase). When I listened to her conversation I dropped down and was lauging hysterically. She was saying "drink little flowers so you are not thirsty. Drink so you have a full belly" I want you to grow up so pretty!

I love three year olds! They are so cute and simple.

Success and Failure

I have to confess that June was full of Success and Failure for me. I have been on a high with success that it was only a matter of time I be humbled. I once again had put too much on my plate. I completed most of it, but it led to some failures. I have learned from them and know that you only trully fail if you refuse to try again.

I am super excited about getting back in the gym. I have been out of commission being on vacation and not having a jogging stroller was difficult for me to go out. I have found a gym to go to for the next 2 weeks and then back home. Mary Kay was a big thumbs down for me this last month but am looking forward to all the people that are begging me for a free facial.

As far as my kids..they are soo awesome. We have our moments, but they do have great manners and are really smart. Every single one of them. Just having an awesome summer trying to not think of our countdown.

For July however.. I have to do some major stuff to reach my before toby comes home goals..I have to get my run time down. Toby has much longer legs than I, and promises "he'll jog so I can keep up"..but this is the first time in our lives our family will go out and go on a run all together. I am so excited.. I have this last 10 pds to lose, which my diet needs to be re-evaluated with my moms good cooking.
I am going back to el paso to move myself into our new apartment. I am going to try not to freak out about it being perfect, but will try. The kids and I decided to train for a 5k in August so that will be fun.

All in all, I did set June up to be a huge disaster, but I came through it ok. I am starting hormone replacement therapy and will put it out there.......if I start being a not so nice person..someone needs to step up and tell me (ok?)

Many times in my life have I gone through bad hormone days and everyone lets it slide..not this time. I am giving you all permission to call me out!

Ok, well here I am rejuvenated, feeling better and at 12:30 have my alarm set to get up at 5 to go to the gym for a couple hours.

I LOVE AMERICA

This fourth of july post is late, I know. I have been waiting until I am not an emotional wreck to blog it. This fourth of July is so much more meaningful to me this year than any other. We have been in the military 2 years now and this year seeing that flag brings tears to my eyes.

It is more than just the everyday random Army Wife pity party. It is more than the spending a great summers day watching fireworks without my husband. It is more than the parades and bbq's.

I walked around my moms neighborhood the night of the 4th. Regretfully so in my workout clothes! I walked and really took it in. It was finishing up a great week for me and my kids. It was a really nice day weather wise and seeing old friends was great. As I walked I couldn't help but think of how awesome a country we live in that allows us to get together with friends and family for dinner. How we get to choose what we eat. How we get to pray before we eat if and when we want.

I am so thankful for the opportunity that I have to be able to walk freely, without fear, especially in little kaysville utah, and be able to enjoy life. This country has been around a long time and seen good and bad times. I think of all the Army wives before me that said goodbye to their husbands to keep this country free for me to come and enjoy my life.

We finished off the last set of fireworks tonight and I thought of what they signify. They remind me of the bombs that some had to watch go off. They remind me of the gunfights that our brave soldiers have gone through for generations and in our current day.. I try to not have too many conversations on war, but it is real! I am thankful for the people who selflessly go and fight so I can sit here and not think about it.

I am so greatful for this country and the freedoms we have. How blessed we all are to live here and even in bad times enjoy more freedoms than alot of others, or for that matter enjoy the freedoms that could still be taken from us if we don't stand up for what we believe in.

I LOVE AMERICA!!

I am super proud of my soldier husband and yes honey..I know you can win any fight by reminding me you are fighting for my freedom!! lol

TV makes you lazy

Holy Cow..I forgot how TV can make you lazy. I literally have not watch a whole tv show in the last 6 month. Over this vacation however I have had the opportunity to sit and do nothing. I have been catching up on some 6 months of missed shows and realized TV can really make you lazy if you let it.

My kids are in heaven, because they never get to watch tv at home. I am finally feeling better and it should last for a couple days so I am headed to the gym at my favorite time (5 am). I love to start my day like that..and they have my favorite stair stepper :)

No more TV for me..such a waste of time, but that is just my opinion.

Army Wives-TV show

I just had to blog really fast about the TV series ARMY WIVES. I don't know if it is because the acting is really bad, or if the show is not really how I see the way the life is. It bugs me.

Background: I watched one show last year and didn't like it, and then cancelled cable so lost track of the show. A couple weeks back my friend called to ask what I thought of the show. I gave it a chance again on vacation when I went on a TV binge. I watched the catch up show and then the new show for the week. Lots of drama that is for sure, but the actors just don't have the right emotion that I think I feel as an actual Army Wife.

I watched last night to give it one more chance and I have to say that only one actor is good. I have to say I am really mad that the stupid pregnant lady is already huge and she is only 12 weeks. I did like however when they showed all the women doing stupid pregnant pt instead of running with the guys, but that goes with some of my other personal views:) at least they got it right.

Sorry for the rant, but i just hope that nobody that watched that show thinks this is really how the life is (or maybe it really is and I live in my own reality! lol)