Negativity

This post is mostly to vent and get rid of any negativity in my life and move on from some mistakes I have made. I also am including it here so I can go back to remember how to deal because I am sure it will happen again.

So this week was the week of drama. Drama I hate, and drama I run from. It found me and caught hold and wouldn't let go this week, but I am casting it out for good NOW!!

This week started by watching a couple little girls for a friend having a baby. I also watched a couple kids for my dear friend Annette while she had a Dr. appt. I also had the regular daycare open for the other girls I watched but added wednesday, and 11 hours on friday to my mix with them.

In the Army there is support (supposed to be) groups that exist and unfortunatly when you get a group of women together who are not all positive the situation goes south and everybody just wants to move on.

My name is very popular overseas by some untruthful, in my opinion low self esteem , hurtful women who think because they have been in this life longer than me they can treat me like crap.

This is my blog and if you are reading it and get hurt feelings you know that it was you talking bad about me and may want to apologize and ask God for forgiveness. I can be honest here because it is MY BLOG!

I quit going to my FRG meetings as of now because in my opinion the leadership was horrible and it wasn't filling my need for the Army. I want more and to be more and the organization wants a bunch of people not willing to work and not have fun and that is not me.

I guess you can't just quit going without people saying you are destroying the organization..single handedly. I am apparently a clique starter and leave people out..I can go on and on. Well, there are a couple people that are coming out to be untruthful people and I am so glad this is happening in month 4 rather than 15 to see the real side of people so I don't waste my time.

I am no longer a daycare!!! YAY..because of this I have been relieved of my helping everyone out stress and even at this point could care less about people not appreciating me for saving them for the last three months. I am going to have such a great day tomorrow because I no longer have a little girl that I had to have so many talks on manners and lying, and waste my time on parenting more than my own four.

I have changed so much in the last year and am so glad that I handled my side of this situation with dignity and as an adult. I am now rid of any negativity from this organization and am now excited to go meet new friends that can be genuine in nature.

Do I have to remind everyone the greatness of God? He has softened my heart to know that this is not directed at me, but at issues these other ladies have in their own lives and although I really feel it is my calling to help motivate and change lives, I cannot force someone to be happy.

I love my life and am greatful for my church and the teachings of it and the God that heads it to show me true love and forgiveness. I am so thankful for the opportunities that I have to deal with situations and help others.

Side note: This blog is not about Annette, Bambi, or Sarah..those are the friends I have met here that I know I can trust, so I didn't want you thinking bad of them in any way.