Here they are ladies and gentleman...I have some concrete goals that I would love to share.
Physically- I will run 2 miles without stopping and in 18 minutes. This one is really going to kick my butt, but if you don't have to work hard it probably is not worth it right? I will make it through spinning class without wimping out and slow riding. I will eat good and get down to 15o pds.
Spiritually- I am committed to STUDYING the scriptures for 30 personal and 30 minutes family time a day. I have been reading but sometimes get out of the studying habit. I am committed t seeing more miracles and acting on circumstances when God answers my prayers.
Mentally- I will be at the top of my game this month. I will make sure my family is "in it to win it" and reaches all our goals for the month while staying positive.
Career- I will have facialed 60 women by the end of April and shared with 30 new women this awesome opportunity of Mary Kay. I will change some lives with my awesome attitude and motivation skills.
House/kids- I will get two years worth of videos made for our home scrapbooking and we will eat excellent all month (more veggies and fruit.) My kids will know that I love them and we will all have fun going to and from activities. I will build my fence out back and learn how to wax and buff my floor. Small craft items will be finished to complete my home decorating projects.
Family/Friends- I will be better at making phone calls to family and friends and letting them all know how much I love them and appreciate their support and love
Extras-I will finish my school courses and get good grades. I will serve others and share the gospel. I will blog more and praise others for their goodness.
I love my life!!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
She chewed up my shoes
I need to set up this situation before I tell the story. I have been replacing my bedroom door lock. I have since to finish it all the way, so the door does not fully close. When we leave the house we leave the dog in the main part of the house. We shut all the bedroom doors, so she can't get to anything. I make sure my stuff is put away in my room. If anything is in the living room, we pick it up and put it too high for the dog to get.
I am setting this up becuase she only chews on shoes. Furniture is fine, but shoes she has a hayday. I came home today to my favorite shoes having the strap chewed off!!! I am so mad at my little dog that I had to put her away and had to go settle down. I only have 4 pairs of shoes so to have one pair out I am so screwed.
My fault for not putting them away, but seriously why today? Why those shoes that are years old and can't find any like anymore?
Well, I have forgiven her, but not FORGOTTEN. I will try to make some more money to go shopping I guess.
With that and her somehow not being potty trained..i am at a loss. I knew when I got her that it was going to take work, so this is something new on my list of stuff to do in April.
I am setting this up becuase she only chews on shoes. Furniture is fine, but shoes she has a hayday. I came home today to my favorite shoes having the strap chewed off!!! I am so mad at my little dog that I had to put her away and had to go settle down. I only have 4 pairs of shoes so to have one pair out I am so screwed.
My fault for not putting them away, but seriously why today? Why those shoes that are years old and can't find any like anymore?
Well, I have forgiven her, but not FORGOTTEN. I will try to make some more money to go shopping I guess.
With that and her somehow not being potty trained..i am at a loss. I knew when I got her that it was going to take work, so this is something new on my list of stuff to do in April.
Gone Again
How annoying is it that my appetite comes and goes? Really..I have never had such a problem with it. Michelle, no more deployment jokes!! ha ha
No, really. What the crap is up? This morning we were fasting for the second week in a row. I painted my nails while the girls were in the bath and the fumes almost made me puke. I am so sick of everything making me want to throw up. I love food!! I love eating lots of food. I eat one bite and I am done, it is like force feeding myself and so annoying.
I have been really good at eating the fruits and vegetables and cutting out my breads. I have been being pretty diligent at going to the gym and even my water consumption. Why is this the thing that has to be off? I have a physical scheduled for next week and hopefully he can tell me something different than I already know.
I will keep forcing food down my throat and hope that I can keep up the calories for what I am burning.
I hate being sick!!
No, really. What the crap is up? This morning we were fasting for the second week in a row. I painted my nails while the girls were in the bath and the fumes almost made me puke. I am so sick of everything making me want to throw up. I love food!! I love eating lots of food. I eat one bite and I am done, it is like force feeding myself and so annoying.
I have been really good at eating the fruits and vegetables and cutting out my breads. I have been being pretty diligent at going to the gym and even my water consumption. Why is this the thing that has to be off? I have a physical scheduled for next week and hopefully he can tell me something different than I already know.
I will keep forcing food down my throat and hope that I can keep up the calories for what I am burning.
I hate being sick!!
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Toby and the Death March
I am so proud of Toby and think it is more than worthy of a blog in itself. Toby volunteered a month ago to do a commemorative Death March. It is to memorialize the soldiers that were taken captive and had to walk 26 miles with no food or water.
Toby trained all of two days, but his work schedule was crazy so he relied alot on how good of shape he is already in. He was a little worried because his group of 4 was planning on running the first part and he didn't know how good he would do.
Let me set the stage. He woke up at 3:30 am his time. He got on his full uniform and his boots. He makes sure his ruck is fully packed with everything and weighing 35 pds. He has a couple extra pairs of socks to change through the race. He tries to hydrate one last time and he is off.
His company(group) of four starts off at a good pace. They go around the track a couple times before leaving the compound. They are already seeing guys drop out like flies. It is not hot yet but they know they better hurry to beat the worst heat. They run and then walk with long strides. He is one of the few that went heavy, the rest did not pack a ruck or went in the light catagory.
This is obviously a recap from toby, so i will let you know if I change anything and when I add pictures. At mile 20 he wants to quit so bad. He is on his last set of socks and his feet are like hamburger. He is not sure he can run again, but is very competive and wants to win. They run a little and then walk. He said they had oranges that seemed to be pure energy to him. At 10 am..6 hours into the competition the heat hit about 105 and was almost unbearable. He only had a 5 miles to go, but under the circumstances he was wondering how much more he had to give. A couple more miles and someone lets them know they are close to the front. They start to run again!! His partner was not rucking but was running with the guide on and toby said he almost started to cry out of sheer pain. His legs were cramping in every muscle possible. The last 2 miles they go back into the compound, pass his barracks where his bed sounded so soft at that point and back into the track area. As he ran to the finish his Captain and First SGT were there waiting and taking pictures. They were so happy and proud of toby and his group. They came in third place for groups.
Toby however...came in FIRST for the ARMY over there in the heavy ruck catagory. He finished in 7 hours. Yes, 35pds, full uniform in horrible heat!! I am so proud of him!!
When he called a couple hours after the finish, he was headed to work for a 24 hour shift. He has to walk about a mile to work, so that really was not something he was looking forward to. He says he know now that he can physically do anything he wants. He is going to run the next one in White Sands, NM. Yes, he is crazy.
He really wants emily to get back in shape after the baby and see if they can get on the amazing race together.
Ok, I seriously think my husband is crazy but am so proud of him and look forward to all his future accomplishments!!
Love you honey!
Toby trained all of two days, but his work schedule was crazy so he relied alot on how good of shape he is already in. He was a little worried because his group of 4 was planning on running the first part and he didn't know how good he would do.
Let me set the stage. He woke up at 3:30 am his time. He got on his full uniform and his boots. He makes sure his ruck is fully packed with everything and weighing 35 pds. He has a couple extra pairs of socks to change through the race. He tries to hydrate one last time and he is off.
His company(group) of four starts off at a good pace. They go around the track a couple times before leaving the compound. They are already seeing guys drop out like flies. It is not hot yet but they know they better hurry to beat the worst heat. They run and then walk with long strides. He is one of the few that went heavy, the rest did not pack a ruck or went in the light catagory.
This is obviously a recap from toby, so i will let you know if I change anything and when I add pictures. At mile 20 he wants to quit so bad. He is on his last set of socks and his feet are like hamburger. He is not sure he can run again, but is very competive and wants to win. They run a little and then walk. He said they had oranges that seemed to be pure energy to him. At 10 am..6 hours into the competition the heat hit about 105 and was almost unbearable. He only had a 5 miles to go, but under the circumstances he was wondering how much more he had to give. A couple more miles and someone lets them know they are close to the front. They start to run again!! His partner was not rucking but was running with the guide on and toby said he almost started to cry out of sheer pain. His legs were cramping in every muscle possible. The last 2 miles they go back into the compound, pass his barracks where his bed sounded so soft at that point and back into the track area. As he ran to the finish his Captain and First SGT were there waiting and taking pictures. They were so happy and proud of toby and his group. They came in third place for groups.
Toby however...came in FIRST for the ARMY over there in the heavy ruck catagory. He finished in 7 hours. Yes, 35pds, full uniform in horrible heat!! I am so proud of him!!
When he called a couple hours after the finish, he was headed to work for a 24 hour shift. He has to walk about a mile to work, so that really was not something he was looking forward to. He says he know now that he can physically do anything he wants. He is going to run the next one in White Sands, NM. Yes, he is crazy.
He really wants emily to get back in shape after the baby and see if they can get on the amazing race together.
Ok, I seriously think my husband is crazy but am so proud of him and look forward to all his future accomplishments!!
Love you honey!
End of March beginning of April
Well we are about to finish yet another month. I figure I only have to do this 12 times! Seems like not so much when I put it like that.
March seemed to be successful. Toby met some personal goals..of which are another blog in themselves. The kids and I managed to get through without killing each other..so that equals success with the Tennysons.
I started making some really close friends here and meeting alot of people. I have reached my fitness goals for the month and look forward to April. Spring is definetly here in El Paso with 80 degree weather. We have some great parks on post so look forward to utilizing those.
Spring break is over however so the kids are not excited for school monday. They only have like 8 weeks left however and then we are going on a trip with family and setting goals for the summer.
We have a special fast on sunday (which is our fast sunday because of conference next week). We are fasting as a ward for an increase in member missionary experiences and a growth in our ward. I am so excited. I love being apart of something bigger than me. Not like this is not what we are all supposed to be doing, but a special fast to get inspiration as a ward. Yeah!!
My experience with deployment is still a positive one. Alot of the wives are starting to break. I am sure my time will come, or maybe it already has but I missed it being so busy lol. I miss toby like crazy but try to live life as normal as possible.
I am building a fence next week with some materials i got from my friends neighbor who moved last week. I am searching the papers and craigslist for a swingset or something, but it will be nice to let the kids out back and have them not chase the dog down the street. Yes, I could just not let the dog out, but Carmen always wants to throw the ball for her. The ball rolls too far and the rest is history..unfortunatly history repeats itself so I am changing the scenerio.
My new friends are Bambi, Annette, and Sarah by the way. I will probably be mentioning them alot more and wanted to let you know that they all have 3-4 kids and are husbands all are overseas.
I am committed to blogging more of my experiences and look forward to April and closing my book on March. I have learned alot this month on what I am capable of and what I am not. I am thankful for my Heavenly Father who fills in the gaps. Thank you all for your support and prayers.
March seemed to be successful. Toby met some personal goals..of which are another blog in themselves. The kids and I managed to get through without killing each other..so that equals success with the Tennysons.
I started making some really close friends here and meeting alot of people. I have reached my fitness goals for the month and look forward to April. Spring is definetly here in El Paso with 80 degree weather. We have some great parks on post so look forward to utilizing those.
Spring break is over however so the kids are not excited for school monday. They only have like 8 weeks left however and then we are going on a trip with family and setting goals for the summer.
We have a special fast on sunday (which is our fast sunday because of conference next week). We are fasting as a ward for an increase in member missionary experiences and a growth in our ward. I am so excited. I love being apart of something bigger than me. Not like this is not what we are all supposed to be doing, but a special fast to get inspiration as a ward. Yeah!!
My experience with deployment is still a positive one. Alot of the wives are starting to break. I am sure my time will come, or maybe it already has but I missed it being so busy lol. I miss toby like crazy but try to live life as normal as possible.
I am building a fence next week with some materials i got from my friends neighbor who moved last week. I am searching the papers and craigslist for a swingset or something, but it will be nice to let the kids out back and have them not chase the dog down the street. Yes, I could just not let the dog out, but Carmen always wants to throw the ball for her. The ball rolls too far and the rest is history..unfortunatly history repeats itself so I am changing the scenerio.
My new friends are Bambi, Annette, and Sarah by the way. I will probably be mentioning them alot more and wanted to let you know that they all have 3-4 kids and are husbands all are overseas.
I am committed to blogging more of my experiences and look forward to April and closing my book on March. I have learned alot this month on what I am capable of and what I am not. I am thankful for my Heavenly Father who fills in the gaps. Thank you all for your support and prayers.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Have I actually become one of them?
I was laughing too hard last night to blog!! In my neighborhood people are moving in and out, cleaning while packing and unpacking and figuring out how to fit our stuff in these military houses. The night before garbage morning alot of stuff goes to the curbs to be picked up. Some good, some way bad and just gross.
It is funny to drive down the street and see the stuff out there and then drive down hours later before the trash company comes and the item is gone.
Normally I do not pick through trash or even care what my neighbor is tossing out. This week however....last night a neighbor down the street was throwing out a rocking chair!!
Yes, a perfectly good rocking chair. I came home and was digesting the thought of turning in to one of those people that go around and pick up all the free stuff. I was in the house maybe 30 minutes and put Cera to bed.
I decided I wanted the rocking chair and didn't care that it simultaniously put me in the white trash thievery group. Who cares right? It is free.
I went out to get it and it was already gone!
Bummer, and now I know that I have become one of them, and got nothing for it!!
It is funny to drive down the street and see the stuff out there and then drive down hours later before the trash company comes and the item is gone.
Normally I do not pick through trash or even care what my neighbor is tossing out. This week however....last night a neighbor down the street was throwing out a rocking chair!!
Yes, a perfectly good rocking chair. I came home and was digesting the thought of turning in to one of those people that go around and pick up all the free stuff. I was in the house maybe 30 minutes and put Cera to bed.
I decided I wanted the rocking chair and didn't care that it simultaniously put me in the white trash thievery group. Who cares right? It is free.
I went out to get it and it was already gone!
Bummer, and now I know that I have become one of them, and got nothing for it!!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Easter
Sunday was a good day and I wanted to get it blogged before I forgot everything. I did an awesome job on Saturday with the kids getting ready for Easter Sunday. We went to a friends and colored eggs to get out of the house. It was really fun..
Got pulled over on post for going 5 miles over the speed limit. ( You better believe I am fighting it!) Got gas before the sunday car ride to church. (toby would die if he knew I had been doing that)
We got our dresses pressed, the house was clean and mopped. The car was clean, and everyone went to bed early. Sunday I wake everyone up so we had time to read scriptures and share a message. I have been teaching them about the meaning of Easter all week at morning scripture study but because it was fast sunday wanted it to be extra special for them.
Turns out when we got to church we found out it wasn't fast sunday. Some inactive lady I saw from our ward at walmart told me wrong info. Kids were not so happy, but Cera shared her food, so we were good.
We came home and talked about our Easter learnings from church and changed our clothes. I made me really excited that they got the point.
After we went to a friends house and had a great lunch with great company. The kids had so much fun hanging out with the other ones, just talking/potato sack racing/egg hunting.
What a great day!! We got to enjoy Grandmas package on monday, because funny Courtney didn't know the key in our box meant to check another box for a package. We got it however and were all so excited.
Got pulled over on post for going 5 miles over the speed limit. ( You better believe I am fighting it!) Got gas before the sunday car ride to church. (toby would die if he knew I had been doing that)
We got our dresses pressed, the house was clean and mopped. The car was clean, and everyone went to bed early. Sunday I wake everyone up so we had time to read scriptures and share a message. I have been teaching them about the meaning of Easter all week at morning scripture study but because it was fast sunday wanted it to be extra special for them.
Turns out when we got to church we found out it wasn't fast sunday. Some inactive lady I saw from our ward at walmart told me wrong info. Kids were not so happy, but Cera shared her food, so we were good.
We came home and talked about our Easter learnings from church and changed our clothes. I made me really excited that they got the point.
After we went to a friends house and had a great lunch with great company. The kids had so much fun hanging out with the other ones, just talking/potato sack racing/egg hunting.
What a great day!! We got to enjoy Grandmas package on monday, because funny Courtney didn't know the key in our box meant to check another box for a package. We got it however and were all so excited.
Tennyson Daycare is open for business
Well, today I figured out that I need to start saying no to some things. Not everything like everyone wants me to, but some things that are not really important to me.
I got a call from a lady on post that was in a bind for daycare over the weekend. She got my name from someone else I helped in a bind. (ok can you see where this is headed)
The weekend night was fine, because I was going to be home anyway cleaning and doing laundry. I charged 10$ and hour for 3 kids so it made me not so mad at myself. Today I get a call that the kids want the same BABYSITTER.. What? I regretfully said yes. It isn't that the kids are not good, it is the fact that I had things to do this afternoon and said yes to the time I should be doing them.
It ended up ok, because she got out of her dr appt earlier than she had planned, but why do I do that? I never ask for help, but everyone asks me...its because I am reliable!!
Ok, I am going to start back on my system of weighing every decision on my goals. If it doesn't take me the right direction then I am saying NOOO
I got a call from a lady on post that was in a bind for daycare over the weekend. She got my name from someone else I helped in a bind. (ok can you see where this is headed)
The weekend night was fine, because I was going to be home anyway cleaning and doing laundry. I charged 10$ and hour for 3 kids so it made me not so mad at myself. Today I get a call that the kids want the same BABYSITTER.. What? I regretfully said yes. It isn't that the kids are not good, it is the fact that I had things to do this afternoon and said yes to the time I should be doing them.
It ended up ok, because she got out of her dr appt earlier than she had planned, but why do I do that? I never ask for help, but everyone asks me...its because I am reliable!!
Ok, I am going to start back on my system of weighing every decision on my goals. If it doesn't take me the right direction then I am saying NOOO
It's BACK!
I was going about my day as any ordinary day with chasing kids, running errands, doing things for people I don't know, and I realized that my appetite is back.
Not that it is the best thing in the world, but maybe that means I am getting better. I did still throw up today. However, I did a cleanse for myself that continues a couple more days to see if I can self-medicate.
I actually ate chocolate and wanted another. Yeah! That is exciting to me..been missing my chocolate friend.
I know have to watch my nutrition to the tee. I have been loving the no appetite, because I plan before I eat instead of being hungry and eating everything. I just have to stay on my eating schedule and I think I will be ok.
Not that it is the best thing in the world, but maybe that means I am getting better. I did still throw up today. However, I did a cleanse for myself that continues a couple more days to see if I can self-medicate.
I actually ate chocolate and wanted another. Yeah! That is exciting to me..been missing my chocolate friend.
I know have to watch my nutrition to the tee. I have been loving the no appetite, because I plan before I eat instead of being hungry and eating everything. I just have to stay on my eating schedule and I think I will be ok.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
I am a freak
So a little while ago I posted something about my sock issue. I thought it was only the one day with the one sock. Today it hit me, I may be turning into a freak.
I went to get a bowl of cereal. I got the cheerios, the strawberries, the milk. Got the spoon out and went to get a bowl. I have plastic bowls for the kids and then 4 other glass bowls. I use the glass, the kids use plastic obviously. Well, there were no glass clean. I only do the dishwasher every couple days, so they were not washed yet. I couldn't bring myself to hand clean the bowl either (for whatever lazy reason)
After getting everything out, I just decided not to have cereal. I couldn't bring myself to eat it out of a perfectly good plastic bowl.. What the heck?
I am now an official freak!!
I went to get a bowl of cereal. I got the cheerios, the strawberries, the milk. Got the spoon out and went to get a bowl. I have plastic bowls for the kids and then 4 other glass bowls. I use the glass, the kids use plastic obviously. Well, there were no glass clean. I only do the dishwasher every couple days, so they were not washed yet. I couldn't bring myself to hand clean the bowl either (for whatever lazy reason)
After getting everything out, I just decided not to have cereal. I couldn't bring myself to eat it out of a perfectly good plastic bowl.. What the heck?
I am now an official freak!!
A sign or a deviation
So today I was over with friends and was just doing the normal chit chat stuff. I was talking about my mary kay and they were talking about their jobs and what keeps us busy. My friend Bambi (yes that is her real name, and she is so cool) asked if I would ever go back to work full time. I said, maybe if the circumstances were right..
She offered me a job!! She works at the credit union on post as a manager and is looking for someone like me she says. It is full time however and the kids would go to daycare or a friends all day. It is awesome pay, but that is not what always matters.
Our family goal this year is to get completely out of debt..mostly includes DAD! OK except for the car dad is the only one we owe. He is our biggest goal, but seems like something always comes up. Is this a sign? My Mary Kay is picking up and i am pretty busy with that. I have always hated the thought of putting my kids in daycare, but to be completely out of debt and a huge amount in savings, would it be worth it.
Man this one is going to take prayer, but I was thinking today is this a sign for a change or something trying to deviate me from my ultimate goal?
She offered me a job!! She works at the credit union on post as a manager and is looking for someone like me she says. It is full time however and the kids would go to daycare or a friends all day. It is awesome pay, but that is not what always matters.
Our family goal this year is to get completely out of debt..mostly includes DAD! OK except for the car dad is the only one we owe. He is our biggest goal, but seems like something always comes up. Is this a sign? My Mary Kay is picking up and i am pretty busy with that. I have always hated the thought of putting my kids in daycare, but to be completely out of debt and a huge amount in savings, would it be worth it.
Man this one is going to take prayer, but I was thinking today is this a sign for a change or something trying to deviate me from my ultimate goal?
Monday, March 17, 2008
New Me
Carmen was taking my picture, so I was trying to get to her level.
I am getting close to my weight loss goal.. I have about 15 pds to go. I am now a size 8 when I started 3 months ago 14-16..Yeah me. I just have to get fit. I am doing spinning a couple times a week in the morning and then started running at night with the kids and a friend.
Weight lifting is just at home, but those pushups are really getting my arms looking good.
By summer, I may actually wear a swimsuit with the kids this year, instead of my mumu!! (no i didn't really do that, we i just wore shorts and a tank over my suit.
My House
I have been asked repeatedly to post some pictures..mostly by Michelle, so here you go!m my dining area to my kitchen. Yes, my washer and dryer are in my kitchen!
This is my favorite thing in the house
My living room
This is my dining area..that door leads to a office. Notice my cute little dog in the bottom. Her name is Lexi.
If you also notice..Carmen's bike. She is the only little kid I know that has a house that she can ride her bike in!! Ha Ha lucky little girl. note:it is only becuase then I can get things done without her getting hurt.
Entertaining
I have recently figured out that I love to have people over and entertain. I love the inviting and the having people over for some good conversation. Right now the people I invite are more the wives that I have stuff in common with ie:our husbands are all deployed.
I had a get together last night and have to say it was a blast!! A couple women came over who mind you each have four kids themselves. The kids all played and we had great conversation. It has been a long time since I have had a really good close friend, but we are all looking for that connection. Conversation was great and we all try to stay away from drama or negativity so that is exciting to have a group of friends like that.
I had the opportunity to share the gospel in a small way by the way I have my house set up so that is something I was also excited about.
I actually did not mind the prep and cleanup, as long as they know my house will never be completly spotless, we are good!
When Toby gets home I would like us to entertain alot and have a house that people can go to for wholesome fun!
I had a get together last night and have to say it was a blast!! A couple women came over who mind you each have four kids themselves. The kids all played and we had great conversation. It has been a long time since I have had a really good close friend, but we are all looking for that connection. Conversation was great and we all try to stay away from drama or negativity so that is exciting to have a group of friends like that.
I had the opportunity to share the gospel in a small way by the way I have my house set up so that is something I was also excited about.
I actually did not mind the prep and cleanup, as long as they know my house will never be completly spotless, we are good!
When Toby gets home I would like us to entertain alot and have a house that people can go to for wholesome fun!
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Don't tell me what to do
So my mom came last week and we had a great time. In correspondence afterward she gave me some great advice that I shouldn't care what people think of me. Usually I don't, but because of this deployment and the fact I live on post, people think they have the right to tell you how to feel. What?
You know how annoying it is when someone touches your child just because they think they can? If I am crazy, and you have never had this happen then slowly move away from the computer and never read my blog again.. ok beecause for some reason people invade personal space without either the knowledge or the care that they are doing it.
I know that there are many people that have gone through deployments and some of them a couple of times. I know that they may have found some great coping tactics that worked for them. I understand the fact that people really do want to help. But come on..leave me alone for now. I will first say that I am extremely proud of how this experience has been for me and my family, and will probably have a bad day someday, but everyone is trying to create that feeling for me?
For instance: I go to church on Sunday and realized the month got away from me and I missed one sister that I am supposed to visit during the month. Just so happens to be the Relief Society President. It is not because I am depressed, or having a bad life, she had rescheduled our appt from the first of the month and then we had to cancel for some other reason. I just didn't make it. Why because my husband is deployed is it now a sin? If anyone else with a husband at home missed they wouldn't bat and eye, but my husband is gone and I am on a new project list.
This is more of a personal rant, but seriously. I understand that it is good to have things in place to make sure the women are taken care of when the husband is gone, but why because my husband is gone, do I have to be depressed and need some help? i will ask when I need it, I promised my Heavenly Father and Toby before he left that I would humble myself when necessary and ask for help.
Why can't we just inspire people to be better. Why because I have four kids is my life so doomed. i love being busy and involved in everything. I love helping people out and forgetting about myself.
I had a friend who was in desperate need who called me last minute. Crying because she felt so bad to ask if I could run and get her and her kids some meds from the clinic. Why was she crying? To me that is stupid. yes, I have added responsibility, but I am the same Liz that will do anything for a friend!!
If you have continued to read to this point you will see that my new motto for March is "Don't tell me what to do, or how to act"
I thank you for all your prayers and support because that is all I really do need. The Lord blesses me with angels daily to help me on my way.
You know how annoying it is when someone touches your child just because they think they can? If I am crazy, and you have never had this happen then slowly move away from the computer and never read my blog again.. ok beecause for some reason people invade personal space without either the knowledge or the care that they are doing it.
I know that there are many people that have gone through deployments and some of them a couple of times. I know that they may have found some great coping tactics that worked for them. I understand the fact that people really do want to help. But come on..leave me alone for now. I will first say that I am extremely proud of how this experience has been for me and my family, and will probably have a bad day someday, but everyone is trying to create that feeling for me?
For instance: I go to church on Sunday and realized the month got away from me and I missed one sister that I am supposed to visit during the month. Just so happens to be the Relief Society President. It is not because I am depressed, or having a bad life, she had rescheduled our appt from the first of the month and then we had to cancel for some other reason. I just didn't make it. Why because my husband is deployed is it now a sin? If anyone else with a husband at home missed they wouldn't bat and eye, but my husband is gone and I am on a new project list.
This is more of a personal rant, but seriously. I understand that it is good to have things in place to make sure the women are taken care of when the husband is gone, but why because my husband is gone, do I have to be depressed and need some help? i will ask when I need it, I promised my Heavenly Father and Toby before he left that I would humble myself when necessary and ask for help.
Why can't we just inspire people to be better. Why because I have four kids is my life so doomed. i love being busy and involved in everything. I love helping people out and forgetting about myself.
I had a friend who was in desperate need who called me last minute. Crying because she felt so bad to ask if I could run and get her and her kids some meds from the clinic. Why was she crying? To me that is stupid. yes, I have added responsibility, but I am the same Liz that will do anything for a friend!!
If you have continued to read to this point you will see that my new motto for March is "Don't tell me what to do, or how to act"
I thank you for all your prayers and support because that is all I really do need. The Lord blesses me with angels daily to help me on my way.
Garbage Night
Ok, wednesday nights make me laugh. They used to make me crazy but I can't change it, so now I laugh. Thursday is garbage day, so wednesday night is my garbage night. I gather all my random garbage in the house to make sure it gets to the curb so I can have garbage space for next weeks crap.
In El Paso it is pretty windy. Ok, we call it our own little wind tunnel, but really it blows really hard sometimes. What makes me laugh is that the one constant thing i can count on here is that on wedneday nights the wind will blow. Sometimes we go the whole week without any wind, but never since I have lived in this house have we missed a wednesday night.
After picking up my trash from down the street a couple weeks in a row, I decided to wait until the morning to put it out. i am up early and then it can't blow away was my reasoning..two weeks ago was the first day I missed the gym and my alarm. I had two weeks of trash for the next week and decided to never do that again. I purchased an extra garbage can and now have rejoined the neighbors who randomly set their trash out on Garbage night to blow away.
Thinking about it, maybe the garbage guy never comes, it really does just blow away? Ha Ha
In El Paso it is pretty windy. Ok, we call it our own little wind tunnel, but really it blows really hard sometimes. What makes me laugh is that the one constant thing i can count on here is that on wedneday nights the wind will blow. Sometimes we go the whole week without any wind, but never since I have lived in this house have we missed a wednesday night.
After picking up my trash from down the street a couple weeks in a row, I decided to wait until the morning to put it out. i am up early and then it can't blow away was my reasoning..two weeks ago was the first day I missed the gym and my alarm. I had two weeks of trash for the next week and decided to never do that again. I purchased an extra garbage can and now have rejoined the neighbors who randomly set their trash out on Garbage night to blow away.
Thinking about it, maybe the garbage guy never comes, it really does just blow away? Ha Ha
Socks
Tonight as I was getting home for our crazy wednesday runaround schedule. I have found I have a routine starting. As soon as we get home for the night, I quickly run to my bedroom and change whatever pants/capris I have on to something more comfy. Alot of my clothes do not fit anymore, so I am finding my running pants to be the best choice as of late.
Tonight something surprised me about myself..it was not the fact that I didn't have a clean pair of matching socks or even the lack of effort I put forward to find some in my drawer. What surprised me was the hour after I had just put two different socks on affected my whole night.
Yes, I was a little tired tonight, but to be affected by a two mismatched socks is just absurd. I found myself thinking of the lady I used to visit teach from church and how she never had on matching socks and that bothered me. The fact that one of the socks I was wearing was one of Tobys' "left behind crap" I still haven't put anywhere. It really was bugging me, but yet not enough to just take off the stupid socks and find a match. All the laundry is done, they have to be somewhere.
i just thought it was funny that I am a freak about the weirdest stuff..socks!!
Tonight something surprised me about myself..it was not the fact that I didn't have a clean pair of matching socks or even the lack of effort I put forward to find some in my drawer. What surprised me was the hour after I had just put two different socks on affected my whole night.
Yes, I was a little tired tonight, but to be affected by a two mismatched socks is just absurd. I found myself thinking of the lady I used to visit teach from church and how she never had on matching socks and that bothered me. The fact that one of the socks I was wearing was one of Tobys' "left behind crap" I still haven't put anywhere. It really was bugging me, but yet not enough to just take off the stupid socks and find a match. All the laundry is done, they have to be somewhere.
i just thought it was funny that I am a freak about the weirdest stuff..socks!!
Saturday, March 1, 2008
March
This month starts some new excitement with me. I am going to hit my weight loss goal and my mile run goal this month. My home should finally be put together enough that I can have people over and not feel like a dirty army wife.
I am so excited for a new month and new week. We got tobys dates and although I cannot post anything official on the web, we have less than 30 weeks. Yeah. I have so much to accomplish by then.
Cera is going to start to walk this month. Carmen will be potty trained for good and actually thinking about it, cera will go off formula and the bottle. What an exciting month. This could actually mean..i could almost get rid of the big diaper bag and just get a big purse to fit a couple diapers for cera. Oh wow..my life is changing so fast.
I may even try to give up soda for good..well, we will see what the tests show up as from the doctor. I may put that one off a bit.
The kids are finally in there designated sports..cy is in a gymnastics/football conditioning class, and the girls in gymnastics..cy is also in guitar..with scouts and activities on post, we rarely have time at home, so hopefully i can keep it clean this month!
I have been selling more mary kay and plan to boost my sales in the month of march and uppercase living also..i think I am going to venture to enter the craft fair with my uppercase living stuff.
I have made a list of things I want to learn in the next year, and a couple things I added are: learn how to change the oil in the car and learn how to cut decorative wood for frames and wall hangings.
I am so excited for this month!! I better get to bed, to be on my game at church tomorrow. Fast sunday so the missionaries always have new people to introduce me to.
Did I mention how excited I am for March!!
I am so excited for a new month and new week. We got tobys dates and although I cannot post anything official on the web, we have less than 30 weeks. Yeah. I have so much to accomplish by then.
Cera is going to start to walk this month. Carmen will be potty trained for good and actually thinking about it, cera will go off formula and the bottle. What an exciting month. This could actually mean..i could almost get rid of the big diaper bag and just get a big purse to fit a couple diapers for cera. Oh wow..my life is changing so fast.
I may even try to give up soda for good..well, we will see what the tests show up as from the doctor. I may put that one off a bit.
The kids are finally in there designated sports..cy is in a gymnastics/football conditioning class, and the girls in gymnastics..cy is also in guitar..with scouts and activities on post, we rarely have time at home, so hopefully i can keep it clean this month!
I have been selling more mary kay and plan to boost my sales in the month of march and uppercase living also..i think I am going to venture to enter the craft fair with my uppercase living stuff.
I have made a list of things I want to learn in the next year, and a couple things I added are: learn how to change the oil in the car and learn how to cut decorative wood for frames and wall hangings.
I am so excited for this month!! I better get to bed, to be on my game at church tomorrow. Fast sunday so the missionaries always have new people to introduce me to.
Did I mention how excited I am for March!!
Grandma comes to town
I was so fortunate to have my mom come visit this last week. She came in time for Carmens birthday on the 25th.
She did however get to take the role of babysitter a couple times. I ended up in the hospital sunday night for a really bad headache and toothache. Then monday, it was still hurting so bad, I finally just called and oral surgeon. We went downtown, and mom watched the girls while I had my wisdom tooth pulled. Bless her heart..it was like an hour or so for the appt and pull.
We went shopping for Carmen afterwards and then we took the kids to gymnastics. We had a great dinner at Olive Garden that evening. It was so fun..probably not for my mom, but I love being busy and running around.
Cera is still having a hard time taking to people (anybody really) but seemed to do ok with mom for the few times I left.
We had a nice week (well at least I did) mom got a stomach ache for the last part, but we had fun and enjoyed her being here.
I will have to say that I forgot how much less effort it takes to do the little things like run to the store without kids. I am so used to taking them, that this week was really almost hard for me. I felt lost alot of times, but relieved at others.
Thanks mom for your support and awesome help while you were here. I love you and appreciate you so much.
She did however get to take the role of babysitter a couple times. I ended up in the hospital sunday night for a really bad headache and toothache. Then monday, it was still hurting so bad, I finally just called and oral surgeon. We went downtown, and mom watched the girls while I had my wisdom tooth pulled. Bless her heart..it was like an hour or so for the appt and pull.
We went shopping for Carmen afterwards and then we took the kids to gymnastics. We had a great dinner at Olive Garden that evening. It was so fun..probably not for my mom, but I love being busy and running around.
Cera is still having a hard time taking to people (anybody really) but seemed to do ok with mom for the few times I left.
We had a nice week (well at least I did) mom got a stomach ache for the last part, but we had fun and enjoyed her being here.
I will have to say that I forgot how much less effort it takes to do the little things like run to the store without kids. I am so used to taking them, that this week was really almost hard for me. I felt lost alot of times, but relieved at others.
Thanks mom for your support and awesome help while you were here. I love you and appreciate you so much.
Playing catch up
This week we will be playing catch up for the last couple weeks. First off, my dog chewed the computer cord, so internet access has been limited. Yes, I was really mad, but it really was my fault for leaving the dog with the computer in the first place.
Update on Carmen.. we had great success the week I stayed home from everything. Last weekend we were busy running around and regretably threw a pullup on her because I had no time for an accident. Now, we are back to square one. Not one I guess, but maybe three? She goes every once in a while, but loves her pull ups.
Cera is still sleeping thru the night and bedtime is pretty good.
Workouts have been on the downlow lately because I have been sick again!!! I hope to start back up monday morning.
Toby is doing ok in Qatar but missed us really bad. We got to telecomference with him last weekend and that was awesome. He is still so funny.
Seems like my list of stuff to do gets longer and longer, but my mom was here this week, so i crossed some off..that felt good!!
Update on Carmen.. we had great success the week I stayed home from everything. Last weekend we were busy running around and regretably threw a pullup on her because I had no time for an accident. Now, we are back to square one. Not one I guess, but maybe three? She goes every once in a while, but loves her pull ups.
Cera is still sleeping thru the night and bedtime is pretty good.
Workouts have been on the downlow lately because I have been sick again!!! I hope to start back up monday morning.
Toby is doing ok in Qatar but missed us really bad. We got to telecomference with him last weekend and that was awesome. He is still so funny.
Seems like my list of stuff to do gets longer and longer, but my mom was here this week, so i crossed some off..that felt good!!
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